Need You Now :))

ini song of the week yang selalu gue playing-in di hape gue tercintah!!!! sumpah gue baru nyadar lagu ini tuh enak bangett!!!!!! gue cinta mati ama lagu ini. tapi yang nyanyiin bukan Lady Antebellum tapiiii PUCK wif rachel di Glee.. gue suka lagu ini tuh soalnya mewakili gue banget gitu deh terus-terus musiknya tuh asyik bangezz *abaikan... nih ya liriknya cekidott:

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can’t fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t come but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can’t stop looking at the door.
Wishing you’d come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn’t call but I’m a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.

So Sick (My Song Right Now)

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cause you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walking round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Don't make me think about HIS smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cause I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

hello sunshine

haiii .. gue lagi rajin buat ngeblog, kali ini gue lagi buat posting di lab komp SMP Presiden tercintah. kali ini #nowplaying berharap tak berpisah - alghufron. gila emang cowok ini, satu-satunya orang yang ngerti perasaan gue. Love you alghufron :**

Okay, gue mau cerita tentang perasaan seseorang yang bener-bener gak jelas. Lo pernah gak ngerasain lu itu munafik? i do! dan gue juga ngerasa he does..

gue seneng kok cuma sekadar teman, malah ini yanggue harepin. walaupun gue gak ada status ama dia tapi kita masih bisa jadi kakak adek :D

Yeah, I'm New Moon Girl

Hai guyss!! gue gak masuk hari ini, gue sakit gara-gara weekend kemaren full sama Bandung. dan FYI ajah, bandung mengubah gue dari cewek galau menjadi cewek gila. di bantu dengan sepupu saya yang sangatlah gila juga @vanesnesya haha.

sedikit ajah basa-basi gue, gue langsung mau bahas tentang New Moon, bukan tentang si Rob, Kristen, atau mantan gue si Taylor. tapi gue mau bahas tentang alur cerita yang mungkin bisa ngebuat gue tegar..

di cerita kedua dari Twillight Saga ini bercerita tentang seorang cewek yang masih jatuh cinta sama seorang vampire dan seorang wolf. tapi untuk kali ini gue mau menjurus ke arah vampire dan seorang cewek tersebut. Yup, bella dan edward. cekidot yaaaahh...

Isabella Swan dan Edward Cullen adalah sepasang kekash yang lagi di mabuk cinta. mereka berdua jadian karena bella terus mendekati edward hingga bella tau rahasia terbesar edward. edward cinta mati sama bella, begitu pun bella.

tapi suatu hari, bella dan edward putus tiba-tiba karena salah satu alasan. edward meminta kepada bella untuk tidak mencarinya, dan berjanji kepadanya agar tidak melakukan hal-hal aneh. bella sungguh depresi saat itu, baru pertama kali bella merasakan hatinya seperti di tusuk-tusuk kayak sate. bella terus menyendiri di dalam kamar selama berberapa bulan. sampai ayahnya tau bella sedang broken hurt, ayahnya menyuruh bella untuk menemui jacob.

selama bersama jacob, bella melakukan hal-hal di luar zona amannya. seperti menaiki sepeda motor dan lain-lain. tanpa di sadari, bella mulai menyukai jacob, tetapi dalam hatinya bella masih mencintai edward.

nah, dari seulas cerita di atas, gue merasa saat ini gue berada di posisi bella swam. gue depresi? ya gue depresi. gue mengurung di dalam kamar? yes i do. tapi gue capek kalau kayak gini terus, maka dari itu gue mengikuti langkah bella untuk melakukan hal-hal di luar zona amannya.

kalo boleh gue simpulkan gue mau MOVE ON. move on ini gak selalu harus sama cowok kok, gue bisa ngelakuin hal-hal gokil yang bisa ngebuat gue lupa sama tuh yang namanya paijo. mangkanya guys, kalo ngeliat the new me jangan nge-judge gue orang gila ya, gue cuma berusaha untuk lupain dia. so, lemme introduced you the new me, yeah I'm new moon girl. :D

sadnight with no tears

happy sadnight for all single ladies :D

gue ga ada niat buat galau malem ini, tapi gue gak bisa ngelak kalau gue gak galau. dengan di temani alghufron dengan lagu satu jam saja. it makes me so hurt. gue inget kata-kata samantha di film if only, oneday, just oneday to be with you. kalau misalnya satu hari itu gak bisa juga just one hour.

kemaren gue beraniin diri gue buat sms dia, awalnya gue mau nanya sesuatu yang yah bisa dibilang penting. dan ternyata bukan itu masalahnya, gue minta dia untuk ngasih tau gue someday. dan dia bilang dia ga bisa. gue cuma bisa senyum dan nahan semua perasaan gue. tapi, gue ga bisa nahan perasaan di saat dia sms pake "gue-lo", emang awalnya gue yang mulai pake "gue-lo" tapi gue ga berharap dia pake kata-kata itu. gue tau, gue sering buat dia gedek dengan perilaku gue yang terlalu kekanak-kanakan. gue minta maaf..

ada berberapa memories yang gue gak bakal gue lupain. dan gue mau ceritain semuanya malem ini biar gue sedikit plong..

*first story

seminggu setelah gue jadian, gue jenguk temen gue, fia. gue ada planning sama dia buat ketemuan di resto. gue cuma bilang "apa lo bisa kesini?" dan dia langsung pergi ke resto. dia nungguin gue di resto, lumayan lama. dan gue bener-bener ga enak sama dia. gue langsung lari dari rumah sakit itu ke angkot. selama di angkot, gue bener-bener bingung, seakan-akan gue nanya dalam hati sebenernya gue ngapain sih?. gue langsung ke inget gem jan di yang nyamperin goo jun pyo.

di resto gue bener-bener kayak anak ilang, gue gak tau dia di rest mana. dan ternyata dia di golden resto. just one hour.. he makes me feel so comfortable. dan malem itu gue bilang malem terindah bagi gue.

*second story

it's my night, ulang tahun vira sarah pas di tanggal 14 februari. dan untuk kali ini bukan satu jam, kurang dari satu jam. gue sama dia duduk berdua diantara keramaian acara. gue dan dia main dora and the explore. it's too so sweet untuk gue lupain.

*third story

untuk cerita ketiga ini, gue mau gabungin sesuatu yang gak bisa lepas dari benak gue. mimpi-mimpi gue dan dia. mungkin ini terdengar konyol, tapi ini yang ngebuat gue merasa seneng. mimpi pertama adalah duduk di bawah menara eiffle. kedua, ke Bali! ngeliat sunset di pantai kuta. yang ketiga, keliling bandung. gue pernah punya rencana untuk beliin dia klappertaart buat dia. ke empat, naik atv berdua. dan ini bener-bener terkesan konyol banget, tp gue gak bisa lupain itu. ke lima, sehabis UN gue dan dia mau ke MM buat nonton bareng. dan yang terakhir, seminggu yang lalu tepatnya, you're my william and i'm your kate. please god! ga bisa nahan nangis lagi T.T

gue gak tau apa dia masih inget kenangan-kenangan di atas. tapi hati gue bilang, dia lupa semua itu. jujur, gue gak apa-apa kalau dia lupa. karena emang semua itu gak penting bagi dia.

minggu depan ulang tahun gue, ini bener-bener kado terbaik gue. thanks.. gue udah sempet dapetin kasih sayang, gue udah di ajarin apa itu cinta, apa itu kasih sayang, god pleasse don't make me cry .. dan gue akan berumur 15 tahun. gue beranjak dewasa dan akan menjadi yang terbaik. thanks jo..

This Love ( is ended )

Hai hai hai hai hai hai ..... tadi siang gue posting lewat lab komp sekolah. dan sekarang gue posting lewat laptop gue. eaadaaaah wkwkw laptop siapa coba? ngarep banget! yap! seperti biasa gue duduk anteng di depan komputer kebanggaan keluarga Martin Madjid. duduk gue boleh tenang, what about my heart? ciehcieh my heart kayak apa tau ini. wkwkwk.

oke kali ini gue mau ngebahas tentang break up. ya ya ya, gue putus ama si paijo paijo itu, dan ya gue diputusin disaat ga tepat. hari selasa gue bener-bener dapet pengalaman yang bener-bener buat gue mau kabur dari dunia ini, dan hari rabu paijo sms gue. dan isi sms itu dia minta putus. so, gue iyain ajah. soalnya kata dia itu berkaitan sama masalah keluarga. Shit! kenapa ini playlistnya jadi lagu thank you for loving me? abaikanlahh..

tapi yang bener-bener buat nyesek gue.. kita putus disaat gue sama dia lagi berantem.. dan gue belum ngomong sorry, sebenernya sih udah mianhaeyo gak tau dia ngerti atau engga itu artinya gue minta maaf. tapi yasudahlah..

selama 2 hari ini gue liat dia di sekolah, dia bahagia-bahagia ajah tuh. berarti dia kan seneng udah ga pacaran lagi sama gue. dannnn... seharusnya gue ngikutin langkah dia. senyum, senang, no galau. ya walaupun ada ya rasa pengen sms dia. oh iyaaaa.. gue udah juga ga ada hak untuk cemburu. gue baru nyadar tadi di musolah! gue liat foto dia sama salah satu teman sekelas gue, dan rasanya pengen banget bunuh diri tapi gue mikir lagi. siapa dia coba?

jujur, gue gak akan ngelupain dia. tapi gue cuma mau bersikap normal sama dia. jadi yang awalnya gue ngeliat dia itu sebagai seseorang yang bisa bikin gue meleleh, dan sekarang gue harus bisa liat dia sebagai paijo, ya paijo.. tapi gak menutup kemungkinan gue masih suka ama dia kan? dan yang paling penting, gue gak berharap untuk dia balikan lagi sama gue.. karena i won't love him twice. cowok bejibun, cuma gue belum ketemu ajah penggantinya. and let's see ..


smile "D (fake smile)

Why - Avril Lavigne T.T

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

gue baru denger lagu ini di labkom sekolah dan gue langsung fall in love ama lagu ini